'Cause you had a bad day

Today is a day of disappointment, and the reason is spelled expensive course literature.

The background story is the following: A few weeks ago, I was accepted to a free-standing, internet-based course in "Russian for beginners", and I have been looking forward to it immensely. Registration for the course opened last week, but it wasn't until today I was given information about what books we would be required to buy for the course, and that knowledge has ruined effin' everything for me. Why?

The bloody book costs 900 SEK (approximately 1100 dollars), and I can't find any used copies for sale anywhere. It really, truly sucks. Even if I could convince myself that one book is worth such a huge amount of money, the fact still stands that right now, I can't even afford to pay my cellphone bill.

I guess I'll just have to settle for playing my damn guitar and make my Sims earn a fortune in simoleons.

Delivery

Just yesterday, I was pouring my heart out to Sarah and whined about how fucking miserable I felt, and how it wouldn't be fair for anything more to go wrong in my life. I felt down about pretty much everything: not having any money, not being able to get a job, not exercising enough, not being as committed to learning guitar as I should be, etc etc.

Yet today, I find myself feeling strangely... content: Like I'm doing as well as could be expected, considering the circumstances.

The reasons as to why I don't feel like slitting my wrists right now is likely these:

1) My new teachers at Komvux (Swedish Adult Education...) were positive when I asked about the possibilites of doing my studies at home, instead of going to class. I was convinced they would be real mean bastards and tell me to either come to class or go fuck myself, but they didn't, for which I'm eternally grateful. Perhaps this whole "improving my High school grades" will actually work out this time.

2) After having hounded my uni teachers through the entire summer, they finally told me I had earned a pass in their classes, and it boosted my spirits enormously. Though I still won't get any money from CSN, at least I only need 3 more credits until I'm entitled to financial aid again. I realize a meteor will probably fall on my head tomorrow as punishment for me being positive, but if that happens, I'll have a good excuse as to why I haven't done my homework :D

3) I have been looking for an opportunity to complete some of the required work experience for admittance to Vet school (Yes, I know it's about four years left, so shut up!), and I finally got the boss of our local veterinary clinic on the phone. It's not a sure deal yet, but with some good riddance, I'll be embarking on my work experience a couple of weeks from now.

If I could become a guitar god, get accepted to CCNY, and win the lottery by Christmas, Life would be perfect.

xXx,
Avaiva

And there was light

I think... I'm going to start using this dusty 'ol blog again. For a while, anyway.

In three hours I'm supposed to be at Gothenburg Central to step onto a bus which will take me to Stockholm during the night. Why, you might ask, and the simple answer is that the effin' American Embassy is in Stockholm, and to get my US visa I have to attend a ten minute long interview. Why couldn't they have had an office in Gothenburg, anyway? Thanks to the Embassy being in the other end of the country, I had to pay 1000 sek for bus tickets, and have a total of about fifteen hours in a bus to look forward to.

Things could be worse, I guess. But I'm not much for looking at the bright side.

Oh well... Wish me luck, mates.

Crush, crush, crush

2 weeks left 'til graduation!

And just... one week left til Sarah gets back! I've been bouncing around like a monkey on crack since I got the good news. Gods, do I miss her!

I don't have much time, b/c I have an essay craving my undivided attention and a car to crash, but I just have to tell you about my rather unfortunate run-in with my biggest crush E.V.E.R at pressbyrån yesterday:

Friend and I enter store and walk over to the magazine stands*
Friend: Why don't you buy this one?
Me: Nah, my mom already bought that one
Friend: Uhm... maybe that one, then? *points*
Me: Oh my god, we have to get out of here
Friend: why?
Me: Because the guy I'm in love with is staring at me
Friend: Where?! WHere?!
Me: THERE! On the cover of Rocksound!
Friend: You stupid cow. A magazine cover cant frickin' stare at you!
Me: You don't know what you're talking about! He IS staring at me! I can't breathe! Leave me alone!
*runs out of the store*

I HATE my crush. I hope he gets run over by a truck... or shows up outside my door in the middle of the night with a ring in his pocket. I think I'd prefer the last one.

SHOES!

Dear god, I could kill for these shoes!



I spotted them yesterday at a store which name I can't remember, and after lots of thinking (12 hours...), I'm off to buy them. Hopefully they'll still be there, but considering my luck my size probably just sold out :(

Until my grandma gets here (YES, we DO go shopping together!) I figure I'm gonna spend some time on the TMS project. I've already come up with one negative benifit of social networking: you get back pains. Indirectly,of course, but my back still hurts like Hell. Yisch.

//CJ

Give me a Beethoven

Mornin' people!

I meant to sleep in today since I don't have any lessons, but much to my dismay our dog (actually, it's a poodle, so I don't think Oliwer quite qualifies as a dog...) pounced on me at 7:30am and did everything in his power to keep me from going back to sleep. So I spent the morning watching Animal cops Houston on Animal Planet and figuring out how much more money I'll have to save before I can afford a dog. I was thinking 'bout buying a Doberman or a German Shepherd - depending on which one the rest of the family would prefer. I know my Grandpa loves german shepherds, so I'll guess we just have to wait and see.

I do love APBTs too, though, and if it wasn't for the fact that APBT-breeders are as rare in Sweden as polar bears, I'd defenitevily want one of those.




My dream of owning a large hairy dog that drools aside, my life's starting to get rather hectic. I've got... five tests to make up, I think, 2 essays which should've been handed in weeks ago, work four days a week, and to top it all off, I have started to prepare me and Bella for the upcoming competitions this summer. The dressage is going pretty good, but my fear of jumping is messing up the crosscountry and showjumping-part. This is actually the first time ever we're to compete in eventing, so I'm really, really excited - and half scared to death.

For those of you who actually waste time reading this blog, I'm going to do some posts on our final TMS (Technology, man, society) project. In a couple of weeks, Beatrice, Josephine, Gabriella and I are gonna do a presentation on the costs and benefits of social networking sites, and one part of the project is to actually participate in social networking. I think I can honestly say TMS is one of the few courses I actually enjoy.

Anyways, I'm off to work now. Until my next post, I think all of you should try and figure out what the word "Culchie" means! Dunno why, but it's become one of my favorite words :D

Over and out,
CJ

Quiz number.... 1

Found this quiz over at catiebell.blogspot.com. I should go to bed, 'cause we have the morning shift in the stable tomorrow, but this was just beggin me to fill it out.

1. Hur gammal är du om fem år? 18 + 5 är... uhm... 23? Bara 7 år kvar tills döden...
2. Vem var den sista du träffade? Stefano å Viktoria å Oliwer
3. Hur lång är du? Jag är en normallång jävel på 164 cm :D
4. Vilken var den senaste film du sett? Grandma's boy. "Dude, you can get past a dog. But nobody fucks with a lion!" xD
5. Vem ringde du senast? Mormor min
6. Ditt senaste sms och till vem? Lill-sarah!
7. Vad är helgens planer? Jag ska rida Chirren imorrn! Och sen... får vi se, haha
8. Föredrar du att ringa eller skicka sms? Skriva brev med gåspenna is the shit!
9. Är dina föräldrar gifta eller skilda? Skilda, omgifta och familjeutökade
10. När såg du senast din mamma? Innan hon låste in sig i badrummet, så... en halvtimme sedan.
11. Vilken ögonfärg har du? Rödbruna
12. När vaknade du idag? Sex, slog på snooze och vaknade igen halv tio... då engelskan slutade!
13. Har du någon gång hittat en katt? Japp! Tre stycken :D Fast jag fick inte behålla dom...
14. Vilken är din favoritplats? Tough one! Sticky fingers & stallet
15. Vilken plats föredrar du minst? Ställen som luktar... och där det inte finns mat
16. Var tror du att du befinner dig om tio år? I en gränd med en nåljävel i armen
17. Vad skrämde dig som barn? Me was mörkrädd, getingrädd, vattenrädd...
18. Vem fick dig att skratta senast? En grabb i min redovisningsgrupp som gjort hembränd cider som projektarbete
19. Är du för ung för att äga vinylskivor? SKojar du? Me is vinylskivdrottningen nummer ett!
20. Har du stationär eller bärbar dator? Bärbar, lätt.
21. Sover du med eller utan kläder på dig? Den du
22. Hur många kuddar har du i sängen? Typ... fem, kanske?
23. Hur många landskap har du bott i? One and only
24. Har du någon gång spytt på någon? Jao
25. Föredrar du skor, strumpor eller barfota? barfota i skogen på sommaren
26. Är du social? Ge mig en öl så är jag associal!
27. Vilken är din favoritglass? Jordgubb, lion, ägglikör... och mjukglass!
28. Vad skulle du göra om du vann en miljon? Köpa en stooor hästgård åt mami, och ha massa ponnisar att titta på
29. Tycker du om kinamat? Vet inte, har aldrig provat
30. Tycker du om kaffe? Kaffe be AWESOME!
31. Vad dricker du till frukost? Nyttigt... jag är hälsofreak xD
32. Sover du på någon särskild sida? sprawled out in all directions
33. Kan du spela poker? Näh, men go fish
34. Tycker du om att mysa? näh, fan, jag vill ha soffan för mig själv. Fast Johan å Daisy var ganska mysigt
35. Är du en beroendemänniska? Japp
36. Känner du någon med samma födelsedag som din? Nää
37. Vill du ha barn? Japp! Jared ska han heta och ha jätteblå ögon och en sån där skidbackekaninnäsa
38. Kan du några andra språk än svenska? Engelska, farsi, och lite finska å franska
39. Har du någonsin åkt ambulans? Jag vet inte... nej, tror ej det
40. Föredrar du havet eller en pool? Jag är fan rädd för vatten.
41. Vad spenderar du helst pengar på? Hästsaker, skivor, och böcker
42. Äger du dyra smycken? Tja, mitt födelsehjärta-halsband är nog värt en del. Min förlovningsring hade nog kostat lite också
43. Har du någon gång testat narkotika? Njae... det beror på
44. Vad var det senaste du stoppade i munnen? Vin!
45. Vem är den roligaste människan du känner? Pat, Natha... hmm, vem mer?
46. Välj ett ärr på din kropp? Ett rivmärke på min arm där min råtta rev mig
47. Vad har du för ringsignal? HIM - Killing loneliness. ÄLSKAR DIG, VILLE!
48. Har du kvar något klädesplagg från när du var liten? haha, ja, och jag kan fortfarande ha det!
49. Flirtar du mycket? Boyaah. När jag druckit...
50. Vart togs din profilbild? I skogen bakom hannas hus
51. Kan du byta olja på bilen? Jag kan försöka, så får vi se om det blir rätt
52. Har du fått fortkörningsböter? Kan man få det med Farfarsbilarna?
53. Vilken var den senaste bok du läste? Fleshmarket Close av Ian Rankin. När jag tänker efter läser jag nog den fortfarande
54. Läser du dagstidningen? Japp, Stefan sitter med ena delen av GP, jag med den andra.
55. Prenumererar du på någon veckotidning? Näh, men Härliga hund & ridsport dimper ner i brevlådan med jämna mellanrum
56. Dansar du i bilen? Nope, men sjunger
57. Vilken radiostation lyssnade du på senast? Bandit rock, såklart!
58. Vad var det senaste du krafsade ner på ett papper? Mitt banknummer, och ngt om white noise vodka i garderoben
59. När var du i kyrkan senast? skolans julavslutning, men det är ett kapell så det är inte riktigt samma sak
60. Vilka utmanar du? Anyone daring to fuck with me ;)